julierichmond

Day Thirty Four

Katy and twenty-six flutists just performed their annual recital on zoom.

We sat in the kitchen, and heated up a frozen pizza while waiting her her turn. She played “Scarborough Fair, and it was beautiful.

I just heard that there is the possibility of layoffs tomorrow where I work.

I drank wine while I watched Katy, Madeleine, Brynne, and all the other performers step up to their computer’s camera, lift their flute’s and play their melody.

I may get laid off; I may not. This is not unique to me, my college, or Massachusetts right now. We are all facing nightmares of different varieties.

Even if I don’t have a job, there is music. There is zoom, and people sharing the screen who laugh at my jokes, sometimes.

Life is not only one thing.

Tonight, I choose what makes me sad and what to celebrate.

Tonight, I celebrate the people I love. My cupboard is well stocked- I have rosemary and thyme, chicken and apples. Some day, I will explore faraway places, and these days, if someone is tortured by memories of the one that got away, it’s pretty easy to track them down.